bluflamingo

Oh how I miss the days when I wrote something from start to finish and that was pretty much that beyond some editing.

In other words - I *just* finished my gateverse_remix fic, at just over 4,000 words and had a brilliant idea for what I *should* have done. Which, given that I wasn't wild about the first version anyway, means scrapping the whole thing and starting over.

Grr!

In happier news, skieswideopen just posted a short Cam and John fic, In Desparation, Madness, which I won't describle for risk of spoiling it, since it's so short, other than to say that it's really cool, definitely (in my head at least) pre-slash, amazingly in character for both of them, and for Sam, and really kind of sweet.

This is what I get for being all whee! accomplishment! the other day. I can't settle to do anything, I haven't got anything done, and there have been no words written on either big bang or my other lgbt fest fic. And I know if I just started, on either one, I'd get in the mood and keep going, and I know what I want to write, for both of them, and I just can't settle to do it. Gah!

Plus, I was plotting out the rewrite of Doppelganger in my head last night instead of going to sleep and - don't ask me how I managed not to notice before - realised I'm going to have to kill someone. I don't want to kill anyone :( And, okay, it's not going to be anyone major (despite me nearly putting either Keller or Lorne into that position before I realised) but... I don't want to kill anyone. Particularly since I don't actually know who it would be... preferably not Heightmeyer, since that's what the show did, but that doesn't leave me with any characters from the show who I'd want to have die. It's a problem.

As is the fact that I'm pretty sure my gender tutor is going to realise who said mostly negative things on her evaluation this morning, particularly since she caught me making my 'you're wrong but I don't want to argue' face in class. But she was talking about the internet being a male space and when I mentioned slash fandom as a female dominated space, she basically said that it wasn't important and didn't count. Unlike chatrooms, which was what she was talking about, because apparently all chatrooms are filled with insensitive sexist men who make inappropriate comments to any woman who wanders in. None of them are polite and welcoming, and there doesn't exist a single female dominated chatroom on the whole internet, and well, even if there did, clearly that wouldn't count, like female dominated slash fandoms.

Yeah, I still think she's a bad teacher; and I wouldn't mind that she knew I said these things (well, I would, since I imagine she'll know which one my essay is as well, anonymous marking or not) but we've got another class next week. I kind of really want to skip it, just in case.

You know, well over two decades of education of various types, I've never been glad that a class was finishing, ever. Not until I took this one, and it makes me really sad. I love education, I love taking classes and learning things (to the point of doing Open University modules despite having a degree already, before I came back to do my masters), and if this was the only class I was taking this term, I don't think I'd want to come back next year.

Feeling good on a Friday for once...

1. Got my three essays from last semester back and yay! passed all three! one of them with 70% which, if I manage that twice more and for my dissertation, will give me a distinction. Not that I'm holding my breath, but still

2. Done are: gate_women fic; sga_genficathon fic; something for sg1_five_things; have plots for sga_flashfic's not dead yet challenge, and for both my lgbtfest fics.

3. Have been poking around my big bang fic, and decided it's going to have five plot strands (cos I can totally manage five plot strands!) (1) the au-ish version of season 4 (2) John and Cam's relationship starting up (3) Cam's relationship with the people in the city (4) the effect of John's relationship with Cam on his own relationship with the people in the city (5) a main plot with a beginning, middle and end. The only problem is, I'm not sure what the main plot will be. Which may be a problem.

4. Won a £32 amazon voucher for participatin in a survey, and just spent it on books about deconstructing the binary of gender. Yay! (Yes, I'm a sociology geek).

5. Going to visit my parents and sister the weekend after next, which will hopefully include a trip to a bird sanctuary I haven't been to since I was a little, little kid.

1. So I know working in a hospital makes me more likely to pick up every bug going around, helped, no doubt, by having moved to another city, and thus having a whole new load of bugs to pick up, but - GAH! This is the third time I've been sick in six months, leave me alone, evil germs! This is so not the week to have an evil, energy-sapping, sore-throat-giving, light-headed-feeling cold-flu-type thing. I need my energy for thinking!

2. You would think that knowing (a) the genre (b) the prompt and (c) the characters that I'm going to use for my gen ficathon story would help me to actually, you know, start the damn thing, especially given that I've written things where all I knew was who they were going to be about.

You would be wrong, as I have been for the last week and a half.

3. Please, someone, next time I apply to a university because they specialise in what I want to do my dissetation on, tell me not to change the topic three months after I get here. Because dissertation = perceptions of victims of crime + supervisor = specialist in race and music does not compute into an easy nine months.

4. There's only one more episode of Atlantis left this season :( And it's airing this week :( Not a happy flamingo over here.

So, two days ago I was all ready to do serious harm to half the people around me (including my interpreting gender tutor, who in a two hour lecture on women and sexuality, never once mentioned gay women, and also said that bisexual people have fluid gender identity. Actually, I kind of still want to do harm to her). Today, I'm too tired to actually do the harm, or even curse them too much.

Though I could still find it in me to damage the guy in one bed who was masturbating and watching me while I was dealing with the patient in the next bed. Sadly, I imagine that would get me fired. Just... *shudder*.

So, in lieu of cursing these people any longer, and because I have serious writer's block on all six things I need to be working on, answers to the movie meme...

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1. Essay 2 out of 3 is done - will now go and pass out, thank you (what I get for writing it till 2.30am, getting up at 7 and working a ten hour day). Was interestingly full of 'there' when it should have been 'their' until it was proof read. Trying not to think about what I missed.

2. Lorne/Mitchell/Sheppard threesome fic is done, with a shocking small amount of actual sex. I don't know - I can't write explicit sex scenes in Lorne's head, I don't know why. I get all squirmy, and I can't imagine how he actually thinks about sex.

3. Keller fic! Well, to come. Currently it consists of one four line sentence, but it's a start. Then Sheppard in SG1 AU, then something about Katie, depending on the contents on this week's Atlantis (please, get rid of the stupid relationship plot - I like Katie, but I hate than subplot).

4. New Torchwood tonight, and I don't have a tv :( Anyone know where I can find a download - my usual sources have failed me.

5. Heroes, oh my god, why did no-one mention that Mohinder Suresh has the most gorgeous accent I've heard since my Dublin-born Irish history seminar tutor? I could listen to him talk all day, even if it was about genetic theory that I didn't understand. His voice is lovely (sorry, I have a total thing for accents - I used to glaze over just listening to my tutor's voice, which was very embarrassing when she asked me questions).

6. If you haven't already, run, don't walk (if it's possible to do either on the internet) to leahwoof's journal and read her Soul and the Company Store fic, then read the sequel, which will make no sense without having read the prequel but features Lorne and Mitchell and Sheppard and is the most adorable thing I've ever read. To say more would be to spoil it, but seriously - this is the reason I was even later going to bed than I should have been last night. The sequel is even gen, if that helps (the main part is McKay/Sheppard, if *that* helps).

I need some stargate women icons - as pretty as Sara Sidle is, she's the wrong fandom :(

So, story #1 for 14valentines, which is actually the story for day 4 is done, and features Rodney McKay explaining just how unpleasant he can make Cam's life if he hurts John. 1 down, 13 to go - eek!

Story #2, of Sora on Atlantis after Teyla finds her and brings her in, is currently at 571 words and has no actual plot, or prospective ending. Hopefully, one will come to me.

It's actually a little unnerving looking at my list of fics I'm going to write for this, since they say things like 'Ford and Stackhouse post-apocalypse' (as part of the Wild Dark Times verse) and 'Jayne and Zoe on a job together' and 'something about the women of season 4' (which, if anyone has any suggestions/prompts/general thoughts, I'd love to hear them, because I really don't want to end up writing about Katie's relatiosnhip with Rodney and how she prefers her partners to let her be in charge in bed and he's not very good at oral sex). At least some of the others have actual plots, even if it is only in my head (unsurprisingly, most of these are the ones with Sheppard/Mitchell as the main pairing).

In addition to trying to work out a plot for my Sora story, I'm also not-working on my essay (that's what weekends are for, right?) and banging my head against the metaphorical wall because I woke up this morning with a snippet of a Sheppard/Mitchell story in my head and went to have a shower instead of writing it down and now have no earthly clue what it was. Seriously, none whatsoever, and it's incredibly frustrating, not least since past experience would seem to suggest that the chances of me remembering in the future are incredibly remote.

So, I've never done this before, and I have no idea if anyone will say anything, but if you could command me to write one thing (sequel, prequel, pairing, situation, vague idea...) for 14 valentines, what would it be? Which is not to say I'll actually write any of them, but I figure I'm going to need some substitute ideas for when the ones with no actual plot fail to turn into actual stories!

undermistletoe fic final word count: 24,510 words.

What the hell?!

Note to self: you have no ability to predict your own word count. Do not start handwriting things, or you will lose the will to live when you realise you have to type ALL of it up.

On the bright side, I now have four days to write my sg1 jubilee fic, so there's no way that can end up being as long... right?

12,129 words total. This is what I get for writing in Rodney McKay's head - the man will not shut up.

On the other hand, I appear to be able to write explicit sex scenes more easily when I'm doing them in his head, which - I really don't know what to think about that, actually.

Off to bed so I can get up and research seclarisation tomorrow morning. All things being equal, I think I'd rather be writing the sex scenes!

Why is my story which is meant to be mostly porn at nearly 3000 words with (a) no porn, nor even kissing (though some rather geeky flirting) and (b) still needing at least another 1000 words of setup before it can get to the porn.

While my other story, which is not supposed to be porn at all, has two sex scenes already.

On a mostly unrelated note - I really wish del.icio.us allowed for you to comment to things people have said when saving one of your pages (because yes, I do read what people write when they save one of my fics on there - mostly because I like to see what they say, but also partly because I'm curious to see if there's a pattern to what people use as a summary). I end up pointing impotently at my computer screen and going no! no! that's not what it said! Or getting all gooey and happy that someone said something so nice about something I wrote.

OK, rant over - back to the non-porny porn....