bluflamingo

If John hadn't gone to Cam pretty much immediately, I think things would have been a lot harder for them when he did, because John going to him immediately is basically saying, look, I love you, I want to be with you, I want a family with you, and this way of bringing up my unexpected son is my first choice, enough for me to give up Atlantis. So if he doesn't go to Cam first, there's always the question of - is Cam second choice? What was John planning to have happen to their relationship if he stayed in Atlantis to raise Alex? And I think that with both of them being that insecure about where things stood - because, basically, in WHN, Cam's pretty sure and John's not - they wouldn't have been able to do a lot of the hard stuff, like giving up jobs they loved and coming out to their families, or at least not easily. I don't know if I think they'd split in the end, but I think everything would have been much harder, and probably not gone as well as it did.

And I kind of think, maybe, in the end, John would have taken Alex and gone back to Atlantis, and they wouldn't have called it a break-up, would have treated it like the start of a long-distance relationship, but it would have been the end, because it would have killed Cam to not be able to see his son any more, and John wouldn't have been able to handle the guilt.