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I feel like I've fallen off the face of the Earth lately - possibly because I haven't spoken to an actual person since last Friday. Which is when I went to see the doctor with earache, got told I had tonsillitis and was put on anti-biotics that make me feel like I'm going to pass out if I'm not lying down, and like I'm going to throw up.

And I have another three days to go :(

On the bright side, my ear doesn't hurt any more :)

That aside, it's been a weird couple of weeks - I nearly adopted a second cat, then pulled out at the last minute and I'm still not really sure why.

I'm looking at jobs, but thinking about maybe just quitting and temping for a while, so I have some mental space to think, plan what I want to do with my life, study, write, volunteer, meet people. Basically, not feel guilty for being off work for three days when I'm sick and can hardly go out. Assuming I could make a decent salary, anyway.

And I said, as a joke to my counsellor, that maybe I'll quit work and go work in Canada for six months. recounted this to a friend, who said, okay, look into it. And now I kind of have a plan? And am actually sort of thinking about whether I could do it? I mean, I wanted to, a few years back, but I freaked and didn't go ahead. But now... I don't know. Tell me stories about studying/working abroad and how amazing it was? Because even just writing it here makes me feel scared, like I'm committing to the idea somehow and I'm not sure I'm ready to yet.

I don't know. I feel like something's going to happen - like anything could happen, like something big is coming, and it's scary, but also it's kind of... exciting?