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I haven't been much for reading John/Rodney in quite a few years now, unless it sounds really my kind of thing, or is written by someone I trust not to hit any of my hot-button argh! issues. Particularly when people write post-season 5, I hate the way most of them deal with Keller.

I don't think it really hit me until today though how much I'm out of that pairing now. I'm reading recs for mcshep match, and a lot of them sound great - except that the pairing is John/Rodney and apparently that's enough to make me not want to read. Or it mentions a Rodney-fanon thing that I used to be able to gloss over and now can't.

Not that I was ever a huge shipper of them, and I haven't written the pairing in years, but it feels weird to think there's nothing in that challenge that I want to even give a try to this year. Not because the stories are no good, but because of me.

Though I would read the hell out of a story where Rodney and Jennifer break up and Rodney comes to John as his second choice and doesn't get to have John. Not even if he apologises, not even if John likes him that way, not for any reason, and especially not if Rodney always knew John liked him and just wanted to be normal or whatever. Which I am so totally not writing, because I'm halfway through a Hawaii Five-0 fic that also doesn't have a happy ending, and really one at a time ought to be my limit.

Especially since I signed up for cotton candy bingo and decided I want all of my fics to be post-apocalypse fluff - thanks, colls, for posting about both challenges in the same post!