Big Bang fic...

[bluflamingo]

You know, I think I'd be happier about having just passed the 30,000 word mark if it hadn't come with the realisation that I need to go back and write Teyla's story as well, because it's so different from canon season 4, and I think it needs to be explicit, or it will come across as marginalising Teyla into a mother role, rather than exploring what it means to be a leader and a warrior and a potential mother in this context (although less pretentious than that sounds).

Not that I mind writing Teyla, but I really don't need this to start getting longer!

Also, adding in her point of view opens up the potential to write bits in Lorne's as well, and I'm not sure I can resist the opportunity to write him and Cadman.

On a brighter note, the angst v sex dilemma has been resolved by the handy use of neither of these in favor of John being kind of an idiot and Cam being very patient. Angst and sex to follow shortly (possibly very shortly, if I elide the next couple of weeks rather than writing them in detail, which ought to be doable).

I'd say that these things wouldn't happen if I had an outline, but that's a total lie.

In other news...

1. Interpreting Gender tutor continues to annoy me by writing a simultaneously really vague and really specific essay question (bodies matter - does this apply more to women than men?) which I intend to subvert since I know she wants us to talk about weight and appearance and I have nothing interesting or new to say on that topic, so am going to talk about medical technology and reproduction instead.

2. Work continue to fail at working out my pay month on month, and have simultaneously overpaid and underpaid me, and listed pay from a month ago as pay in advance, thus utterly confusing me.

3. I continue to come across as an idiot when commenting on a particular person's fics, without being entirely sure how I manage that. Anyone else do that - find that you just can't say the right thing, and trying to explain makes you sound even dumber, to the point that you just want to say 'I liked that, thank you,' and run away?

Note to self: don't forget to post lgbt fest fic on Sunday, or to write the other one. Fifty words in a notebook do not a fic make.

Comments

[lyonza.livejournal.com]

I totally get your feeling on the commenting thing... I try and not sound like an idiot, but sometimes it just feels like no amount of explaining will fix it. :)

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

Exactly. I think the most frustrating thing is that I never feel like an idiot until she replies to the comments and I realize that, to her at least, I've totally failed to express myself. I always imagine her sitting at her computer and rolling her eyes at the idiot commenting on her stuff, though I'm sure that in reality she does no such thing.

[bruinsfan.livejournal.com]

Ah well, don't feel alone. I once was unknowingly so repetitive with an opinion in comments to one of my favorite lj writers that it broke her composure and had her shouting me down over it. In all caps. Pretty mortifying, especially coming from someone I admired and didn't mean to upset or offend in any way.

Also, adding in her point of view opens up the potential to write bits in Lorne's as well, and I'm not sure I can resist the opportunity to write him and Cadman.
Here's where I greedily break out my enabler hat and urge you on—your Lorne and Cadman dynamic is probably my favorite platonic relationship in all of fanfic.

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

Yikes - at least this person is just kind of patronising (or at least I read it as patronising, it's hard to tell in writing when it's not someone I know). Being shouted down sounds kind of scary (and like kind of an over-reaction, no matter how repetitive you were being).

Here's where I greedily break out my enabler hat and urge you on

But, see, there can't just be an odd bit or two from Lorne's perspective, there'd have to be an actual story-line for him, or him and Cadman, and I don't have one. I'm thinking maybe the two of them turn up in some of Mitchell's bits - I think Cam would get a kick out of watching the two of them together :)