My weekend in a numbered list...

[bluflamingo]

1. I am victorious over my packing (moving house on new year's eve, yay!), my laundry, my posting of christmas presents and my buying of furniture (including an amy moment* in which I acquired a chest of drawers that would have been £70 including delivery for only £30, because I went by a nice secondhand place). However, I have also packed all my tools away, despite knowing I'm going to need them the day before I move in order to take apart the furniture I already own. Thankfully, I labelled all the boxes this time, so I just have to find the right one.

*So named for my little sister, who has a tendency to pick out something she wants, take it to the till, and find that it's being sold for about half of what she was expecting to pay.

2. I've succumbed to the mass fandom diversion to Merlin (as if there was ever any doubt I would - it has wizards, sorcery, Anthony Head and a dragon). It's a lot funnier than I was expecting, and may explain why I haven't got anywhere with my sg_flyboys fic, having spent today reading Merlin fic instead.

3. Of the good: I have a long femslash plot for SGA. Of the bad: I also have a het plot. I don't write het! At all! And I suspect that it will bring the Rodney lovers to demand my head on a pike, and probably also make the Keller haters think I agree with them. It may also require me to actually watch more than the first minute of Brainstorm. Despite all this, I desperatly want to write it, if only to make up for all the fic that has Keller as some kind of evil witch who's wrecking Rodney's life when he should be with John (because Rodney isn't ever complicit in their relationship, it's all Keller's fault. If SGA were merged with Merlin, she'd be Nimueh).

Actually, both of the ideas require me to watch Brainstorm, and the first one requires the one about the runner, the name of which escapes me. Sigh.

4. Three days from now, I will be home for Christmas, and as badly as Christmas went last year (oh, so very badly, especially considering my faher didn't find out that I came out to my grandmother by letter a few months before. Which, hey, fate's probably saving that for *this* Christmas, so I can uphold my reputation as the bad daughter. Excellent), I don't care because I'm homesick and I miss my mum, and I actually cried at the end of this week's Criminal Minds, which is nothing if not a sign that I need to go home for a few days.

5. I'm off to write about John, Cam and Alex, and snow, and hot chocolate. And possibly make myself hot chocolate to go with it.

Comments

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

I hope you know, I'm really looking forward to #3, whichever idea you end up writing.

Thanks. I really want to do both of them, but the prospect of the second one kind of terrifies me, because it's break up fic from Jennifer's point of view, where she's not the bad guy, but Rodney kind of is a little bit, because of the team and John, and I just - ugh, it has so much potential to go horribly wrong and be hated by everyone. And also get me accused of hating Jennifer, which I really don't want since I like her and I want her to be sympathetic in it. And also because I'm sick of stories where they break up and it's all her fault because she should just step aside and let Rodney be with John, and Rodney is totally innocent.

So, yeah, it has a lot of potential for disaster, I feel :)

my brain has been taken over by a Rodney/Jennifer friendship-fic plotbunny.

Cool :)

[ariadne83]

See, as much as I like Rodney I enjoy seeing him be the bad guy on occasion. Really, sometimes he's not very nice - he can be oblivious and forgetful, and he can have a one-track mind. I've even see him forget who he's talking to and just say whatever insult pops into his head, even when it makes no sense. It's one of the things that make him so compelling. I say bring it on, but I understand the wariness about fandom's reaction. It's a crazy place at the moment.

I've just about hit my limit with stories where he 'realises' he never cared about her at all, on any level. As much as I want to see Rodney and John get together, sometimes I *want* it to be hard, especially because choosing to be with John is arguably the more difficult option (and I know we don't *choose* who we love, but I think Rodney's practical-minded enough to at least try).

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

Really, sometimes he's not very nice - he can be oblivious and forgetful, and he can have a one-track mind.

Exactly. They're not really suited to each other, in my opinion, but it's as much him as it is her, and her pointing out ways in which he could be different is not a sign that she's a terrible person, nor is it a sign that Rodney's helpless before her machinations. If he doesn't want to, he doesn't have to, and also, he could leave her. They're dating, not married with three kids, and even if the latter were true, if he hated it that much, he could still leave! She doesn't have magical mind-controlling powers over him!

I've just about hit my limit with stories where he 'realises' he never cared about her at all, on any level.

Definitely. And John always ends up admitting his feelings after the break-up and having Rodney fall into bed with him, declaring that if he'd only known, he never would have been with Keller, and there's never a moment when either one of them is bothered by this. If I was John, I think I'd be pretty bothered by the idea that I spent months wanting someone while he messed around with someone he didn't even care about, and usually only ended it because she did. It doesn't exactly seem like the most solid foundation for a relationship!

sometimes I *want* it to be hard, especially because choosing to be with John is arguably the more difficult option

Particularly since Rodney seems to want what a straight relationship would give him - someone to go to things with him, as his partner openly, someone he can get married to - and those things are never going to happen with John. It seems like it should be a bigger mental shift than, oh, ok, you do like me, let's have sex.

[ariadne83]

If I was John, I think I'd be pretty bothered by the idea that I spent months wanting someone while he messed around with someone he didn't even care about

Excellent point. I wouldn't want to date someone who was OK with using people and lying to them (because Rodney did tell her he loved her).

It seems like it should be a bigger mental shift than, oh, ok, you do like me, let's have sex.

Exactly! And I'm not convinced (as some people seem to be) that Rodney wants to be in Pegasus forever. He wants his Nobel, and he wants to bask in the recognition. If they declassify the Stargate program, I don't think he'll ever get over going to conferences and saying "I told you so".

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't want to date someone who was OK with using people and lying to them

Exactly! How would you know he wasn't doing the same to you, because there was someone else he still wanted more than you? And how would you deal with the person he had been messing around with - it's not like John and Jennifer can avoid each other!

He wants his Nobel, and he wants to bask in the recognition.

Yeah. He's not going to hide out in Atlantis forever with John. I think if you'd give up being at the forefront of galactic discovery and helping to save a galaxy in return for recognition, you don't deserve to be there anyway, but that's just me :)