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You know, I'd actually forgotten that shaky, freaked out feeling that comes with coming out to family members.

I can't say I'm enjoying remembering it all that much.

In other words: while I'm out to my mother, my father, my sister, my sister's boyfriend, and both my grandmothers (my grandfathers are dead), I haven't ever come out to my aunt and uncle (my mother's brother and his wife). Mainly because my mum felt my aunt wouldn't take it well. Personally, I think that's rubbish and also that they've probably figured it out for themselves. Regardless, I just hit the point where I decided this was stupid, and sent my uncle a text saying 'you know I'm gay, right?'

So now I'm sitting here shaking, waiting for a reply (I don't do coming out over the phone, and I can't do it face to face because next time I see them will be with my elderly and infirm grandmother and my very stressed mother, so if it goes badly, not good timing). Oh, how I didn't miss this feeling!

On the other hand, that covers all my family except for the great aunts, who I guess will find out at my sister's eventual wedding (assuming she doesn't ban me from giving the real reason when nosy family who I never see ask why, as the oldest, I'm not married yet).

Should have done it by letter, like I did to my father's mother, when he kept saying I couldn't tell her because she'd freak (yes, that's always my family's reason. I prefer not to think too hard about why they say this) and I got sick of that and wrote to her. Apparently she called my mother to ask if she knew! Then she wrote to me and said okay, fine, thanks for telling me, and now asks if I've met any nice women. My grandmother was in the WAAF in WWII, so she's not as sheltered as my father seems to think. Interestingly, that was four years ago, and my father doesn't seem to have noticed that I've done it yet.