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[bluflamingo]

Atlantis news: don't want to talk about it, don't want to think about it. So much for this week not getting any worse.



Rest of my week: God, I can't wait for it to be over. I realise that's a totally arbitrary thing, but this week is not good. I've burst into tears twice already, both times fortunately in my room, and I have to go see my supervisor tomorrow so she can tell me what needs doing on my dissertation. It's a lot - she sent me three pages of notes - and I only have three weeks before the deadline, because of various issues due to her, and I don't know what I'm doing. Just thinking about it makes me cry, and I don't like her, and I don't want to in front of her.What's the point where you get past reacting to this kind of thing with tears, because I'm 26 and I'm still waiting. I miss my ex; she was the only person I could ever ring up in tears who wouldn't yell or tell me to pull myself together and I just want to talk to her.

So yeah - I want it to be Saturday, because Saturday is Atlantis, and the last installment of synecdochic's latest Broken Wings fic, and the end of this week.

Comments

saturdaysaturdaysaturday (what? it's as good a mantra as any)

[ekaterinverse.livejournal.com]

this probably won't make you actually feel any better, but i am 26 too and i still cry (and throw things, and escape into fic, and cry more, and sleep just so i don't have to think about it right now) when deadlines like that are staring me balefully in the face; anyone who yells at you or tells you to stop is an ASS, imo, and doesn't understand.
also: you are brilliant, three pages of red ink be damned. your fic makes me laugh and cry (in the good cathartic way rather than the awful frustrated or despairing way), and it always stays with me long after first and second readings. so.

[http://users.livejournal.com/tesserae_/]

What's the point where you get past reacting to this kind of thing with tears

48 and it still happens occasionally; I am more likely to cry because I'm angry or stressed than anything else, but it still makes me crazy that I react that way.

I still hate to be told to pull myself together, though. It's like, dammit, I just want to be promised ponies for a while, okay?

*wishes for Saturday on your behalf*

[10pmpacifictime.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to tell you. Just, I hope you feel better and it's okay to cry sometimes. It's releasing a pressure valve and is better than a whole infinity of ways of dealing with bad stuff.

[skieswideopen]

If you figure out at what age we outgrow tears, please let me know, because at 31, I still cry. I was constantly breaking down when I was finishing my my Master's thesis; I was so stressed by the damn thing that that anything--or nothing--could set me off. Haven't cried yet during my doctoral thesis, but I'm sure it's only a matter of time. (My supervisor is of the opinion that everyone ought to cry at least once during their dissertation which...really doesn't make me feel better.)

If it helps, remember that no one is completely satisfied by their dissertation: it's always matter of good enough rather than really good. (There may be a few freakish exceptions, but pay them no mind.) Really good comes later, when you publish out of it, assuming you go that route. You will get it in good enough shape to defend or whatever you need to do to finish before the deadline. Good enough, that's all you have to do.

*Wishes Saturday would hurry for you.*

[10pmpacifictime.livejournal.com]

The only person who was ever satisfied with his dissertation was Rodney McKay, and he's fictional.

[ninja007.livejournal.com]

It's okay to cry, as it's a stress release valve.

It's been a bad week all the way around. I just don't know how you do this and work on a desertation at the same time....

I agree with 10pmpacifictiime... no one that I've ever talked with has ever liked their desertation...

[lyonza.livejournal.com]

*HUGSES*

Its Friday. Hold onto that.

I have room under my bed if you want to hide out - you might have to share with gelsey but I'm sure she won't mind :)