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[bluflamingo]

I'm sure it says something unhealthy about my obsession with the pairing, but it's so *nice* to be writing John/Cam again (apparently, I haven't since the end of February). Maybe because I don't have to think so hard about how I want to write them - or not, since this is an AU.

In other words: I finally started my lgbtfest fic (what? It's not due till June, that's ages!), which I even sort of know what's going to happen, for once.

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[skieswideopen]

I worry no-one would believe John could get that bad.

I think you'd have to direct it the right way--suicide runs rather than cutting or starving himself or anything like that. But yeah, you would have a job explaining how he managed to survive losing so many other people without falling apart, and why he's suddenly unable to cope with loss...especially in that he's losing someone he only sees every few months. I admit, that will probably be a challenge. I don't blame you for hesitating.

[bluflamingo]

The angle would be that he's already depressed, in the medical not the colloquial sense (it's set after and so the end, when keller notes that he's not well and she's giving him sleeing pills) and he sort of sees Cam as the one good thing he has that's just his. And so it's less that he can't cope with losing Cam secifically than that he can't cope with one more thing and that happens to be the one more thing.

And yes, more retreating than cutting and suicide attempts!

Oddly, the very first idea I had for a cam/john fic (which I never wrote) was basically the flip of this-john's stranded on earth and they think atlantis is lost, and he's with cam and pretty deressed.