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[bluflamingo]

This is what I get for being all whee! accomplishment! the other day. I can't settle to do anything, I haven't got anything done, and there have been no words written on either big bang or my other lgbt fest fic. And I know if I just started, on either one, I'd get in the mood and keep going, and I know what I want to write, for both of them, and I just can't settle to do it. Gah!

Plus, I was plotting out the rewrite of Doppelganger in my head last night instead of going to sleep and - don't ask me how I managed not to notice before - realised I'm going to have to kill someone. I don't want to kill anyone :( And, okay, it's not going to be anyone major (despite me nearly putting either Keller or Lorne into that position before I realised) but... I don't want to kill anyone. Particularly since I don't actually know who it would be... preferably not Heightmeyer, since that's what the show did, but that doesn't leave me with any characters from the show who I'd want to have die. It's a problem.

As is the fact that I'm pretty sure my gender tutor is going to realise who said mostly negative things on her evaluation this morning, particularly since she caught me making my 'you're wrong but I don't want to argue' face in class. But she was talking about the internet being a male space and when I mentioned slash fandom as a female dominated space, she basically said that it wasn't important and didn't count. Unlike chatrooms, which was what she was talking about, because apparently all chatrooms are filled with insensitive sexist men who make inappropriate comments to any woman who wanders in. None of them are polite and welcoming, and there doesn't exist a single female dominated chatroom on the whole internet, and well, even if there did, clearly that wouldn't count, like female dominated slash fandoms.

Yeah, I still think she's a bad teacher; and I wouldn't mind that she knew I said these things (well, I would, since I imagine she'll know which one my essay is as well, anonymous marking or not) but we've got another class next week. I kind of really want to skip it, just in case.

You know, well over two decades of education of various types, I've never been glad that a class was finishing, ever. Not until I took this one, and it makes me really sad. I love education, I love taking classes and learning things (to the point of doing Open University modules despite having a degree already, before I came back to do my masters), and if this was the only class I was taking this term, I don't think I'd want to come back next year.

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[skieswideopen]

So the school doesn't keep the evaluations secret until after final grades are in? That's...unfortunate. Students should not have to worry about their grades or their treatment in class when writing evaluations.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_la_la_la/]

Wow, yeah, that would suck - I always thought they were supposed to hand them to the prof when/ after the prof hands in the grades.
[Also, I love your icon.]
What do the other people in the class think, or do they just not speak up? I can't imagine how everyone in the class could believe that the entire internet is this giant monolith, and that it's completely dominated by males...

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

We usually do evaluations in the last class of the term, but it's different this time for some reason. I don't want to sit in a class with her while she knows I said negative things about her, as pathetic as that probably sounds.

What do the other people in the class think, or do they just not speak up?

They don't really speak up. No-one said anything in this dicussion, and actually I usually don't bother either, because the lecturer doesn't take disgareement well. On other stuff about the class (I have a lot of problems wit it), people do kind of agree with some of my criticisms, but I saw some of the other evaluations, and no-one else had written anything in the negatives space. So I was probably wasting my time anyway!

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

Technically I suppose they might, but we hand our evaluations back to the lecturer, so I'm sure she looks at them before handing them over. I know I would in her place. The trouble is, they are anonymous, but we're a very small group, and I don't think it would be hard for her to figure out who said what. Sigh.

[skieswideopen]

Ah, I see. At both of the universities I've been at, the instructors and TAs aren't even allowed to be in the room while the students fill in the evaluations. We have to ask for a student volunteer to gather them up, seal them in an envelope, and take them to the central office, and then we leave the room.

[bluflamingo.livejournal.com]

That would make a lot of sense. I don't care that she might be upset by what I said, but I do care that I have to sit in a class with her while she knows I said it. It's like last semester, when we did anonymous evaluations, but mine, because I belong to a different department to everyone else, was on different coloured paper. Not that I had anything bad to say that time, but it's not really anonymous then.