bluflamingo: pansy (Pansy)
2015-11-11 10:13 pm

Fic post: What You Want & What You Need

For some reason, all the fic in my head is depressing, past-trauma stuff, and clearly the best solution is to write it out and put it into the world. So have a couple-thousand words of FBI profilers and the kind of trauma that hangs around for years; mainly because it's either this or the story where suicidal-Coulson lets himself get killed in the middle of a battle while Clint's listening in. I'm not sure I can bear actually writing that one :(

What You Want & What You Need (2017 words) by bluflamingo
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Aaron Hotchner & David Rossi
Characters: Aaron Hotchner, David Rossi
Additional Tags: Past Rape/Non-con, Trauma

After Maeve dies, Hotch and Rossi deal with the leftover trauma from Foyet and what he did to Aaron; fears, memories, nightmares, and the trauma of never really knowing for sure.

bluflamingo: half orange with segments in rainbow colours (Default)
2015-10-18 08:43 pm

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Hi Yuletide author!

Thank you for signing up to write one of my fandoms. I can pretty much guarantee that I'll love whatever you write, so if you've got a brilliant idea that you just love and *have* to write, feel free to do it. If you're like me and find yourself staring at a blank screen really wanting to write but not knowing where to start, hopefully this will help.

Generally I love hurt/comfort, mild angst, positive endings, friendship stories, verbal humour, mild teasing, AUs, future fic, stuff set before the show started, slash/femslash, developing relationships, gen/friendship, caring and affection, queer communities, kid fic, kittens and puppies, bookshops.

I don’t like humiliation, embarrassment, people being made to look stupid, outright humour stories, excessive violence, PWP, het.

Rivers of London
Thomas Nightingale

I couldn't decide who else of the characters were "have to haves" for this fandom, so feel free to pick anyone else to write about with Nightingale.

Nightingale hits all my tragic history, really needs a hug buttons, so if you wanted to write about that - the first few years after the war, pre-war tragic ending relationships - then go for it. I'm definitely down with angst and sadness for this fandom. Alternatively, how Nightingale met Stephanopoulos/Seawoll/Walid/Caffrey/the Rivers, or if you wanted to go future fic and speculate, that's cool too. I'm particularly fond of Nightingale and how he's part of queer London over the years, preferably with no internal self-hating, or maybe they pick up some new apprentices as Peter gets more experienced, and Nightingale ends up being the sore of queer agony uncle for baby queer wizards?

Pairing wise, I could see any combination of Nightingale with the other male characters, or go gen - I'm happy either way.


Another fandom where I'm totally happy for you to go with angst/sadness if the mood takes you - I think the entire team have enough of it! Feel free to bring in any of the other characters, whether they're nominated or not - I love all the characters, though I have a particular fondness for these two.

If you're feeling pairing fic, then I ship Spike/Lou, and I'd love anything that touches on their relationship, pairing or friendship: first meeting, how they got together, what they do when they're not at work, Spike after Lou dies, the two of them meeting each other's parents... Or go AU and don't kill Lou; or indeed go super-AU and have them doing something totally different.

The thing I like best about this show is that they're all really decent people - there's no violence towards suspects of the "oops, did I knock your head against the car door?" kind that you get on other shows. I don't need you to work that into the story, but just avoid them doing violence because they're angry or upset, please.

Mission Impossible movies
Will Brandt

Brandt is my favourite character from the movies, but I like all the characters nominated, so feel free to bring in anyone else who takes your fancy. I pretty much ship Brandt with any of the men in the movies, if you wanted to go pairing, but as with the others, I'm totally happy with gen as well.

In term of prompts, I'd love to read something about Brandt between Julia apparently being killed and Ghost Protocol, or between Ghost Protocol and Rogue Nation. Like the other two fandoms, I'm totally happy for you to go angst/sad fic - Brandt's another character who sort of lends himself to it. On the other hand, go happy ending, and I'll be just as pleased. Does Will have geeky hobbies he engages in when he's not working? Family he sees? Bonding time with the Ghost Protocol team? Or something hurt/comfort on a mission? - though if you go that way, can it be weighted more comfort than hurt please?
bluflamingo: Joey Lucas from TWW waving her hand (TWW: Joey (wild hands))
2015-03-04 09:40 pm

Are we medicating away sadness? (Spoiler: no)

In a bid to review my pro-writing blog, here's 500 words of me talking about the current fashion for claiming that mental health treatment is all about medicating away normal sadness.
bluflamingo: Fury, Coulson and Hill with SHIELD printed above them (SHIELD)
2014-10-21 08:36 pm

Two new fics

Two new challenge fics posted recently, one SGA for Rare Characters (on which my recipient has thus far failed to even kudos, which bugs the hell out of me - even if you hate it, I wrote it for you, you could at least say thank you! Rude!), and one for the Marvel Big Bang (with awesome art by sian1359):

News From The Front (1507 words) by bluflamingo
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Carson Beckett/Laura Cadman, Laura Cadman & Evan Lorne, Laura Cadman & Katie Brown
Characters: Laura Cadman, Katie Brown, Evan Lorne
Additional Tags: Post Episode: s03e17 Sunday, Friendship, Past Relationship(s), Background Character Death

Even after leaving Atlantis, Laura keeps up with what's happening to Carson; covers Sunday - The Kindred

Angel in the Architecture (10778 words) by bluflamingo
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Clint Barton
Characters: Clint Barton, James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov, Maria Hill, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Steve Rogers
Additional Tags: Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Mission Fic, Identity Issues

Off the grid on a mission gone awry, the first thing Clint knows of the downfall of SHIELD is when his rescuer, James, hands over a newspaper article. James knows way more about Clint than he should, but Clint recognises the way James seems like he's running from something, and anyway, it's not like he's got a better bet for getting out of the country. So that's what his life has come to: fleeing the country in a train car, sleeping with an ex-brainwashed assassin - and then Natasha and Steve show up.

MBB is also the first time since... I don't even remember when... that I posted directly to LJ - oh my god, what did they do to the posting interface?! Let a gremlin nibble on it? I have no idea how it's meant to work any more
bluflamingo: Natasha from Avengers Assemble raising her eyebrow (Natasha eye-brow)
2014-08-25 08:15 pm

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I'm going up north (of England) in a couple of weeks for a few days' holiday, and will be flying because it's much cheaper and quicker than taking a train. I'll also be going with only what I can get in my cabin bag, since I refuse to pay half the cost again of the flight to check a bag.

As a result of this, and because my parents owed me a birthday present, I just bought a Kindle.

And realised that, although I own a lot of books, I don't really read books all that much any more, and hence have no idea what to throw onto it.


I mostly read non-fiction when I read, especially the sort of pop-science/pop-history stuff that got popular a few years back. I've just finished Bill Bryson's account of a year in US history (and lent it to my dad, so I can't check what year!) and I've read some good stuff about women in the second world war, especially the spies. I like stuff about explorers, and women who take on physical challenges, and anything about science or language written for a lay person. Also histories of gay and lesbian people, and books about equality and feminism and women's rights movement. Fictionwise, I'm really picky, but I mostly like fantasy and crime. Or crime-fantasy. Police procedurals generally over private detectives, and definitely no little old ladies solving crimes. Female characters over male generally, and LGBT characters (or heavily sub-texty) if I can get them. Fantasy, I'm about halfway through the Temeraire series and loving it, re-read Garth Nix's Sabriel series until the books fall apart, and loved Trudi (Tracey?) Canavan's magicians academy stuff the first time I read it (then realised the main character is the classic girl who's special cos she's like the boys, and that all the characters except her are men).

Any suggestions for what I might download? Books you've loved? Good sites for searching for ebooks - I tried Amazon, but are there others?

And if you'd like to leave a couple of character names and a prompt with your suggestion, I will very happily write you something short in return!
bluflamingo: Joey Lucas from TWW waving her hand (TWW: Joey (wild hands))
2014-08-02 09:09 pm

Advice please?

A friend of mine (who I haven't seen in the better part of a year, since she got a girlfriend) got in touch with me this week, hey, how are you, let's catch up, to which I said yes, definitely, coffee this weekend, and so we set it up for this afternoon.

She rocked up with her girlfriend, which she hadn't mentioned doing at all, and didn't say anything about (other than introductions). Definitely wasn't an unexpected thing that she was around and hence invited along. Having never met her girlfriend, and not even knowing in advance that they were still together (and because I was expecting to have coffee with my friend, not meet a new person), I was slightly thrown.

I guess some people just assume that you means you-and-your-partner but she's the only friend I have who's ever made that assumption, and I'm not up for having friend time co-opted into friend and partner time, as nice as her partner seems to be. I get that sometimes she'll bring partner, of course, but I don't see that it's just a standard thing that doesn't rate any kind of conversation. Plus, my friend brought up a couple of things that are too personal for me to talk about in front of her partner who I don't know, and it felt like I was expected to entrust her with this stuff as much as I do my friend, despite her being a stranger to me (maybe because my friend trusts her and considers it transitive? Or just didn't think?)

Question is: how do I say this to my friend in a way that won't sound like I don't like her partner? Especially since her partner lives in another town, so I guess they spend their entire weekend together, and I kind of feel like a mean bitch for saying, actually, can it just be you and me (other than the obvious solution of only asking to do things on week nights, when I assume that they're not together).
bluflamingo: Black Widow and Hawkeye hugging (Black widow/Hawkeye hug)
2014-07-28 09:16 pm

Avengers: Slipping Away (Clint/Bucky)

Slipping Away (741 words) by bluflamingo
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Clint Barton
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Clint Barton, Phil Coulson
Additional Tags: Past Clint Barton/Phil Coulson, Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier

Clint finds out that Coulson's alive; Bucky provides much needed comfort

Or read it here )
bluflamingo: Hansel and Gretel (from Witch Hunters) walking towards camera, town burning behind them (Hansel and Gretel)
2014-07-19 11:30 pm

Now where's the list so I can cross stuff off?

1. Made a clutch purse to take to my friend's wedding in a couple of weeks - so much less difficult than the tutorial made it sound

2. Cut the pieces for the shawl I'm making

3. Bought my first Christmas present this morning - now if I can just manage to keep track of it between now and Christmas...

4. Broke 10k on my marvel big bang fic, and only have one scene left to write.

Feeling very accomplished right now!
bluflamingo: two white girls, one dark hair, one blonde, sitting up on bed. blonde has her hand on brunette's face (two girls kissing)
2014-07-16 07:37 pm


I come to you after an hour of googling and trying things and failing to get anywhere to say - help!

I'm developing a training session about LGBT people and domestic violence, and as part of this I want an infographic to give people a sense of how many LGBT people, and how of these survivors, there are in Bristol.

What I want, ideally, is a series of icons of people, some of which I can make a colour to indicate LGBT, and some of those another colour to indicate survivors of domestic violence. In an ideal world, it would be animated, so I could click and each block would change colour as I went - so I could start with all people green, then make LGBT people blue etc.

Is there a tool that I can use to do this simply, without having to pay a fee, and without feeling like I need a degree in graphic design to make it work? I know there are masses of infographic templates out there, but I can't seem to find one that will just do this.

If not, it's going to have to be a graph, but I love the idea of little people, and so I figured if anyone would know, it would be you all. So thank you, in hopeful advance.
bluflamingo: Natasha from Avengers Assemble raising her eyebrow (Natasha eye-brow)
2014-07-06 11:26 am

Life in a list

Life has been a little crazy since... oh, February, maybe... but I miss you all, so I'm going to try to actually post something occasionally. In the meantime, have a list:

1. I passed my PhD upgrade panel! (In case I never said, I'm a part-time PhD student alongside working full-time, looking into service provision for female victims of domestic violence from a same sex partner). It basically means I can now seek ethics board approval and do the research part - eep!

2. My landlord decided in May to evict me (apparently, I'm supposed to just live with water coming through the ceiling and not complain about it?) so I ended up moving in something of a rush to a fairly tiny flat that I nevertheless love - I keep telling people it's the best decision I was ever forced to make when I didn't want to

3. I've been making some clothes, since I like to sew, and I hate to clothes shop. So far: one dress with shirring top (out of purple fabric with squirrels on it); one blue and purple patchwork skirt (oh my god, that took FOREVER); one very bright wrap around skirt; a tea dress with tea pots fabric (about three quarters done, but needs another panel to make it long enough); and a panel skirt that I figured out myself, and which is hence driving me slightly crazy. Next up is a shawl to wear to my best friend's wedding (over the dress a friend is making me), a bag for the same, a circle skirt out of green floral fabric, and a halter top dress that's suitable for work. Plus, if the latter works out, another version in purple camouflage fabric. Oh, and a baby quilt for a quilt show.

4. Job interview tomorrow, eep. and extra eep because I bought a new dress to wear, but it's white with black flowers and I just got my period - slightly risky?

5. My marvel big bang fic is almost finished, but I think I want to write a companion piece to go with, because then I can write Natasha and Sam and Steve and Maria Hill being smart and awesome and coming to the rescue. Fifty days is plenty of time though, right?

6. I still haven't finished my beginners archery course, mainly because it's on Sunday mornings and I'm not very good at mornings even on weekdays. Does anyone have any good suggestions for making myself get up and go?
bluflamingo: Fury, Coulson and Hill with SHIELD printed above them (SHIELD)
2014-06-03 08:05 pm

Mostly thinking about loud

So, today I interviewed for a job, and then I got offered it.

Which would be a good thing, except that I'm not sure whether or not I want it.

The backstory to the dilemna is that a year ago, I took a job I love, part-time alongside another part-time job, then in August I got made temporarily full-time in the job, with the expectation/hope that this would become a permanent thing. Then we went through a restructure and I got told, nope, I'd have to go back to part-time, except I don't have my other part-time job any more, and I can't afford to be on three days a week.

To add interest to the whole thing, I applied for a secondment while the restructure was in progress, and got offered it. I just started two and a half weeks ago. It's got six months, and there's not much chance of it being extended, but they might be able to make up the additional two days for me. They're also paying more than my substantive job.

With all this happening, I started applying for other jobs, with a view to (a) getting a permanent full-time post and (b) getting a job that pays more than I'm currently on and is a step up. In case things all fell through, I also applied for the job I just got offered today, which is basically my substantive post for a tiny bit more money with another council.

Everyone still with me?!

Pros to taking the job include: I'll have a permanent job, the people seem really nice, they've just been restructured so I'm not going to be restructured again in the next six months, I'd like the job, it's reasonably convenient for where I'm moving to (did I mention I'm moving this weekend because my landlord evicted me?)

Cons are: I've got six months in my secondment so I don't need to panic yet (especially since this is my first application and interview), my secondment pays better, I've put in two applications for better jobs that I'm waiting to hear back on, I'd need to stay at least a year before I could realistically think of moving to something better.

Plus, taking the offer feels like the safe option, rather than the scary stretch option. OK, maybe I don't get offered anything else and then I have to panic. But I want a better job on enough money that I feel secure, where it's a stretch from what I'm doing. And I just want to do the risky thing for once; what's the point of being single and dependentless if I can't?

All of which comes down to - I should take the offer, but I think I'm going to turn it down and hope that I can get something better.

Tell me I'm making the right decision?
bluflamingo: Amy from TWW looking pretty (TWW: Amy (pretty))
2014-02-14 10:56 pm

Progress on my 2014 list

My sister tells me I can't call it a bucket list if it only applies to one list, even if it is a list of things to do before 2014 kicks the bucket, so now it's just a list of 20 things to do except there's only 19. Which is not as catchy!

Regardless, I'm making some progress on it:
1. My coffee table is now covered in a shiny layer of map pages, which had the added bonus of enticing me to tidy away all the crap that lives on it, which spiralled into a fullblown cleaning and reorganising of my flat

2. My footstool is repainted and waiting for a new fabric cover - as soon as I find instructions that don't seem to require a degree in upholstering science, that is!

3. For volunteering, I've walked the little Westie twice now, though last night we got caught in a sleet shower, which she seemed to think had been sent especially to amuse her. I was less amused.

4. PhD upgrade is set for April, final data tbc, oh God what am I doing?!?!

5. Five out of ten stories submitted: so far, two accepted, one rejected, and two pending.

I've also finally put the edging on the last two (of four) place mats I started when I bought a new kitchen table last summer (oops) and made up a cushion that I half-did before Christmas. This weekend will be more of my friend's wedding quilt - four rows of seven done, and I bought the backing fabric when one of my favourite fabric shops had a one day sale; taking the recycling before it takes over my flat; possibly more chopping down in my allotment; and tomorrow I'm going to a soapstone carving workshop which should be fun.

Plus, somewhere in there I have to do a chunk of my upgrade paperwork, and I really want to make a start on this Avengers fic idea I've got... Yeah, maybe I need a shortlist!
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2014-01-26 07:34 pm

(no subject)

How is it nearly February already? My birthday is less than a week away, and it feels like we just finished Christmas. I drove past a house with a tree still in the window *last week* - which, okay, may be more random than indicative of anything, but STILL. Can we slow down a bit please?

I bought a DVD of the best of Riverdance which arrived on Friday night, so I may have spent more of my weekend than is entirely reasonable watching that. I've seen the show live twice (and am just waiting for ticket sales to open so I can buy a ticket for when it comes back at the end of the year) and watched it twice when I've happened to catch it on TV, but in my opinion, there's no such thing as too much Irish dancing in a girl's life.

Though even the cat has abandoned me, so I may be in a minority there.

I've also discovered that it makes very good background music for quilting - the first two lines of my wedding quilt for my best friend are done! It has seven lines of 5 blocks, and I haven't even started the rest of the blocks, but that's not too bad. It's a jigsaw puzzle pattern, so it's not complicated, just fiddly to make sure everything lines up. Gonna be beautiful though, and when it's done, I get to tick something off my list.

On the subject of my 2014 to do list, I've also submitted three stories this year and sold two, and am working on number 4 - injured soldier waiting for his boyfriend to come home hurt comfort, I feel like maybe I wrote this already?! - and I've signed up to volunteer with an organisation that finds people to walk dogs for people who can't anymore. Assuming we get on, I'm going to be walking a Westie once a week - very excited!

How's everyone else's 2014 going?
bluflamingo: Natasha from Avengers Assemble raising her eyebrow (Natasha eye-brow)
2014-01-03 06:39 pm

Hi, world, hi!

So, the windy weather round here froze up my router over Christmas (don't ask me how that makes any sense, but apparently it's what happened) and I've been internetless until today. On the bright side, the company replaced it for free, and, even better, replaced it with a wireless router.

Big smiles.

What've I missed in the intervening period?

Here's all the things I've been wanting to post and not managed to:
1. Happy new year! 2013 was much better than 2012, but here's hoping for 2014 to be even better.

2. I wrote two stories for the [ profile] be_compromised Christmas exchange, which are still anonymous. If you want to try to guess which two, I promise a prize for the first to guess... not sure what it'll be, mind.

3. I also wrote a last minute pinch hit for yuletide, which, embarrassing confession, I thought the character in the prompt was someone else when I snagged it, and didn't realise till I got home that night that it was actually someone else who appeared in the books I hadn't read yet. Bad bluflamingo! But it got more kudos than I've had on anything, possibly ever, so... make of that what you will!

4. I don't usually bother with new year's resolutions, but this year, I made a list of 20 things I want to do this year (well, except it's only 19 cos I haven't figured out what number 20 is yet) )

So, if nothing else, that all should keep me busy!
bluflamingo: Hansel and Gretel (from Witch Hunters) walking towards camera, town burning behind them (Hansel and Gretel)
2013-12-23 10:48 pm

(no subject)

Today didn't get off to a great start - got to work to find out they'd turned off the heat over the weekend and didn't get it turned back on till nearly 11 (great reward for working right up to christmas, thanks, guys!) - and then the day just completely got away from me, because I picked up a yuletide pinch hit despite knowing I'd have about four hours in which to write it (why? why? I have no idea), and also agreed to do a friend a favour that took up one of my precious four hours.

Plus, I had to pack for Christmas, get ready for tomorrow's battle of wills between me and the cat over her going to the cattery, and generally run around like a headless chicken the way I do every time I'm going away for a couple of days.

Regardless, pinch hit is posted, suitcase is packed, favour is done, and flat is more or less in a state to be left for a few days.

Comment replies, final December posting meme post and possibly wailing about why on earth I agreed to go to my family for Christmas to follow tomorrow. Safe travels if you're travelling, and may you have a stress free time of it whatever you're up to!
bluflamingo: purple boots (Purple boots)
2013-12-22 03:13 pm

Dec 22: Favorite Sheppard/Mitchell relationship scenario

My cat's gone into hiding, which is probably a sign I've been dashing about too much today. Rosie (the cat) was a rescue when I got her, who was found wandering the streets with no identification or owner, so the home don't really know what happened to her, but I think her family must have moved away and left her behind, because she freaks when there's anything going on that seems like it might be packing. I pulled out all my fabric and sorted it, which is probably close enough for her to need to hide under the bed for a while.

While she's being in her happy place, [ profile] pacificngal asked me about my favorite Sheppard/Mitchell relationship scenario:

I prefer for them to have been friends, with or without benefits, prior to Stargate, as a general rule, and in my head, they had an on-again-off-again sexual relationship and friendship after meeting early on in their military careers (obviously, well off while John was married). I know we only ever saw them exchange a handful of words on the show, but to me, they didn't seem like strangers, or people who'd just met. But I don't think either one was around for the major crises of each other's lives (Cam getting shot down, John losing his friends and nearly getting kicked out).

For Cam, I imagine that, post-SG1, he gets a new posting in Washington with Homeland Security (since there's no obvious next step for him at the SGC but he wouldn't want to leave the programme entirely, and Landry and O'Neill are probably grooming him to take over command, since Sam doesn't want it). He buys or rents a nice house in Washington with a backyard and gets a dog and basically rises through the air force and the SGC until he had to retire and it's all good.

For John (yeah, I swear I'm getting back to the question!) I'm a little less sure. Like, I think he comes home from Atlantis (because he gets promoted again? Because the IOA or SGC won't let him go back? Because he bonds with his brother while on Earth and decides to stay there? Because of Cam? Because he's tired and decides to leave?) but then I can go either way on whether he stays on with the Air Force (teaching young pilots) or leaves and does something else (gets his PhD and becomes a lecturer who all his students love? Does something that still involves flying? Gets involved with the family business again? Takes a random left turn and becomes something that no-one would have expected?). Either way, he occasionally gets sent back to Atlantis, and they rebuild the bridge, so that Teyla and Ronon can come visit, and when Lorne gets put in charge of Atlantis, he and John email back and forth and John mentors him through being in charge without ever admitting that's what he's doing.

Regardless, I think that John and Cam end up living together in Washington, with the dog. Cam makes friends with all the neighbours and drags John out to shovel for all the older ones, and John bonds with all the kids and disaffected teenagers living there, and they teach him cool tricks on their skateboards.

And everyone lives happily ever after :)